So Naive

So unsure where to go from here. So unsure what to say. The pain in unrelenting and the feelings are flowing at warp speed, yet they seem to be in slow motion. Was this all a lie? Was it never meant to be and was I THAT naive that I thought it could work. What went wrong? One day we are a powerhouse of strength; the next our future is uncertain?! How could you do this? How could you not let on that you did not feel we were strong enough to withstand troubles thrown our way. Aside from issues that presented themselves not even one month after our uniting, it is unclear whether or not we can get through other issues we had been battling?! This was the basis of our uniting; the basis of our decision. When the pastor spoke about being able to work through everything - all trials and pains- together; THAT is what got to me because I THOUGHT we could. Now..... our strength; our love; our power is questioned. There is nothing more I can say. Nothing. I have nothing to say. It makes me ill. It makes me numb. It hurts deep inside...... now I am stuck here with so much to say; but no words to express............